sighh...no trekking for me this weekend

Originally i thought yesterday was a pretty alrite day for me considering I managed to find my way to the orphanage's new home. And after seeing their new house, I felt really happy for them coz this was such a great improvement! They now have more rooms, more space and this is a real proper house. The kids looked really happy.

After leaving the orphanage at about 5.45pm when it was getting dark, I made my way home. Only when I reached the gate did i realise my wallet was missing. arggh..to be honest, i didn't really know how to react coz maybe i've sort of adapted to this nepali lifestyle where sometimes you don't really bother reacting too much. i was kinda stunned, but calmer than I expected myself to be. we called the orphanage to see if my wallet was there but they said they couldn't find it. actually that was the only place that i had rummaged through my bag to take some pencils for the children etc but i really can't be too sure coz the wallet could have gone missing elsewhere. sugandha offered to fetch me on his bike to search at the orphanage but i felt is was not necessary coz if they said they couldn't find it, its not nice for us to barge up there to search again. would be kind of accusatory since i'm really not that certain if i really lost it there.

anyways... just quite thankful that i didn't put my USD in my wallet, so the damage wasn't that bad. just lost my IC, my credit cards (which i got my mum to cancel), and money for trekking which was about RM200. and also thankfully i put some ruppee in my pocket so that can last me a while just for coming online for an hour each day and for commuting to the orphanage for the next week.

maybe it's god's way of telling me i need to be focused. My purpose of coming here was to do volunteer work and not to be on a holiday. so the money in the wallet was for trekking which i've decided to cancel. hopefully can get back the 30USD deposit that I've paid.

anyways, hope that whoever picked up / stole / took my wallet will put the money to good use. maybe it might feed a family...maybe it might help pay for someone's uniform...ah well...not gonna dwell on it. guess staying here really changed me a bit coz usually i'd be jumping mad at myself for losing something so important. but now just sort feeling that there's really no point crying over spilt milk and making a big fuss out of it.

gotta head off to the orphanage, bringing a swiss lady wif me today. she's not a volunteer but on like a one week cultural stay program.

adios.....