my blog is alive again...

its been almost 5 months since i've been back from nepal. writing this blog entry from home is certainly very different from writing a blog entry when i was in nepal.

for one, i dont even know what i should write about as life in the past 5 months havent exactly been the most exciting months of my life. nothing new to write about except whine on about how work has been quite a struggle. well 5 months after nepal, 5 months into brand planning...everything's just whooshed past in the last 5 months working as a "strategic planner" - a glamourous name if you have really all the qualities to be a good one.

am still doubting whether i'm cut out for this 'much-sought-after' position that is only given to the 'selected' ones. sometimes i just wonder why go through all the stresses when you can take the easy option of doing something you really like.

ah well..i guess its not so easy for everyone to just drop off whatever they're doing and embark onto a total different career path. many a times i've been so tempted to just throw in the white towel, but thankfully i've been supported by enough sane people to keep me from doing something irrational again.

have concluded i'll just hang on to this job thats although driving me rather insane - and just learn whatever i can and take whatever comes next. guess when i'm really sick of this, i will throw in the towel no matter what anyone tells me.

la la la.. now i'm sitting at home coz had a rather serious asthma attack which the inhaler didnt work and i had to be on a neubiliser (the last time i used one was when i was 7!!) and this time i had to have double dosage coz i didnt feel that much better after 10mins of inhaling from the machine. actually my attack wasn't really that serious, i could still go for a half day meeting...i think that doctor just isnt that great....grrr.....had to come back coz my hands were starting to shake, and i was getting a bit light-headed from the stuff that i inhaled.

tomorrow's gonna be another long long long day........sighhh........when will these presos and meetings stop.....miss those days in nepal where everyday i just wake up feeling good bout what i'm doing even though my asthma was quite bad then..and also the fact i had to bathe in freezing cold water..=p..but certainly it felt great waking up not having to worry bout meetings and deadlines..sigh...